Change is a Bitch.

I know her personally, and I do not like her. She always seems to pop up when I'm getting comfortable, when I've settled, when I feel as if I'm right where I need to be - whether or not that be the case.

When I see her coming, I run...I push, I fight and struggle, and always lose the battle...most often, hurting myself and others in the process.

I have tried over the years to learn to adapt to her, to embrace her, to treat her as a friend...and each time she comes by I find myself resorting to my old M.O. and resisting.

The problem is that she will always be a part of my life. She will always be there, threatening to return at a moment's notice. She appears when you're expecting her, and sometimes appears when you had no idea she'd be arriving on your doorstep needing a home for a bit.

So, then, how is it that I am to learn to adapt to her existence? How, then, do I actually embrace her?

I often think if I look at the good in the situation, it'll help. But I am pessimistic by nature and have a hard time seeing the good beyond what I see as a total system break down and take over.

Yep. Change is a bitch. And no matter what I do, or how well or horribly I handle her, she will always be there and will always be a bitch.

~Stephanie